Happy New Year

Happy New Year everyone! May 2009 find your will aligned with God's will. I don't know about you, but if this one thing happens to me ... 2009 will be easy!

Difficult decision

Right or wrong; DH and I made a difficult choice today. We decided that we weren't going to pursue fertility help through http://www.creightonmodel.com (the link option just won't work for me right now!). It was our last idea. I think that because a number of my friends are pregnant right now, I really got overwhelmed with the idea of having a baby. The truth is, we just really don't want to be older parents. It's not that we don't want to have children or don't wish we had children, we do. We just don't want to be 54 and 60 with a ten year-old. I think this is a harder realization than either of us thought it would be. If either of us died when my step-father or uncle did, we would be leaving a six year-old or ten year-old without parents. And while it's true, anyone can die at anytime, the likely-hood increases with age. Gee - how ironic - infertility decreases as we age.

Traditional Catholic

You are a 84% traditional Catholic!

Fantastic! You have achieved mastery over most of the important doctrines of the Catholic faith! How did you managage to educate yourself so well?

Do You Know Your Baltimore Catechism?
Take More Quizzes

On my way home from the shore, I stopped to eat a Royal Farms store. I watched a Latino man take beer up to the counter and get carded. The employee said he couldn't buy the beer since he didn't have a US driver's license. I then watched as the man went out, got in his car (tagged in Florida) and drove away. Interesting, eh?

Premenopause weight gain

I have to ask, how much weight can I expect to gain? I've gained 25 pounds in the past year. I think that's enough. I gained about 5 pounds when I turned 30. I gained about 10 more before turning 38. Now at 42, it's just out of control.

I don't eat a thing and I'm packing on the pounds. I eat carrots, I eat salad, I eat fruit, cucumbers and still I gain weight. Seven years ago I ate 1/2 pint of ice cream a night and never saw a pound from it.

My biggest fear is that I'll continue to gain. I'll go out of mind if I have to change to the next higher size.

I've never been the type to go to the gym. I don't want to exercise 5 nights a week. It's just not something I've ever done.

I just want my old body size back. I don't care if it sags more. I just can't take the weight gain.

As if infertility wasn't enough, now this. Somehow I can't help but think, if I had been able to have children, this would all be a right of passage. I'd have something to show for all these years of hormones, etc. Instead, all I have is a body that's getting older, never did what it was suppose to do, and now it's going on to the next stage of life and gettig fat. I have no reference for a body that changes, like one does with pregnancy. I'm just going from what I considered a normal body to an old one.

Help!

Our Cabin

I have a little story. Might not mean much to others, meant the world to me.

At our Ash Wednesday service I was beside myself with worry about how to handle the cabin on the ESVA this year. This is the cabin that was my father's and was suppose to be mine, but my father died without having transferred it to me. Thus, it is owned by my stepmother on paper, but maintained solely by me. It's been a bit awkward of a situation. I had prayed about this often and 90% of the time was letting the Lord handle things. On Ash Wednesday I prayed and meditated about this asking God for resolution and peace. Then I forgot about it. Well a few weeks later I received a letter in the mail from my stepmother indicating she wanted my sister and I to decide what we wanted to do with the cabin. What WE wanted to do! Sister and I discussed and agreed we wanted the cabin put in our names. We wrote a letter back to stepmother and to our amazement, she agreed and is meeting with her lawyer on the Monday after Easter to determine the best way to make this happen.

Why is it I am always amazed by His grace? I am in awe. Now I know others may think there was no correlation between my prayer and worry and God's action, but not me. I love it when these things happen, because it affirms my believe that God does handle things in His time for His reasons and for the most part I am clueless.

How Peaceful are you?

You Are 78% Peaceful

You are a very peaceful person. All is good in your world, no matter what's going on. Occasionally you let your problems get to you, but you generally remain upbeat. Your inner strength is inspirational - much more so than you may realize.

How Peaceful Are You?