Difficult decision

Right or wrong; DH and I made a difficult choice today. We decided that we weren't going to pursue fertility help through http://www.creightonmodel.com (the link option just won't work for me right now!). It was our last idea. I think that because a number of my friends are pregnant right now, I really got overwhelmed with the idea of having a baby. The truth is, we just really don't want to be older parents. It's not that we don't want to have children or don't wish we had children, we do. We just don't want to be 54 and 60 with a ten year-old. I think this is a harder realization than either of us thought it would be. If either of us died when my step-father or uncle did, we would be leaving a six year-old or ten year-old without parents. And while it's true, anyone can die at anytime, the likely-hood increases with age. Gee - how ironic - infertility decreases as we age.